On the days leading up to my hospitalization, I was sinking deeper and deeper into a major depression. Living in residence at my school, I spent the majority of my time curled up in a ball on my bed, isolating myself from everything and everyone around me. I didn't want people to see this part of me because I knew that I was not the person that I wanted people to know and it scared me to think that I would lose everyone that I had built trust and relationships with because they would see this part of me. My mom knew that something wasn't right,and came down and stayed at a friend's house close to my school while I continued to attend school. Despite how horrible I felt, I continued to attend class because I didn't want to let anyone down, I didn't want people to see how bad things had really gotten.
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CategoriesAll About MeMy name is Lauren and I am 20 years old. I have an anxiety disorder called selective mutism that limits my ability to speak outside of my home. I believe that this disorder has touched me for a reason, and my life mission is to bring much needed awareness to this heartbreaking disorder. Welcome to my journey. Archives
January 2018
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